Alternate title: The final boss of The Heroes We Deserve is a woman now
Hello FEU o/
I’ve been waffling on how or where to do a new introduction post, but I think this is the best place for it. It’s really cool to see how much the community here has grown over the last 5 or 6-ish years since I was last around! For those who remember me from back then, you probably weren’t left with the best memories. I’m going to get more into that in the spoilered section below for those who don’t want to read something more personal/serious:
For someone who behaved how I did in a public setting, it feels fitting to talk about in a public setting too, now that I’m doing better and have been given the opportunity to come back. As it turns out, isolating yourself from and hurting the people you want to share a community with doesn’t make you feel better about yourself. I was confused, angry and didn’t know how to resolve any of those feelings in a healthy way. I’m pretty sure, at the time, that I thought it was normal to feel how I did. I think the part that bites the most is that there were lots of people around me who would have been happy to help, if I had been able to ask for it. There’s a lot I can’t forget, am deeply sorry for, and has motivated me to actually live up to who I know I can be.
So, what’s changed in my life since then? A lot, but most dramatically that I’m a trans woman and happier than I ever thought would be possible for me. Treating myself with kindness and finding friends who inspire and care for me took time but has been incredibly rewarding. Over the past few years I’ve been a part of the fighting game community(I was catching up with Devvy just yesterday and he said someone from FEU actually recognized my name at a fgc event, which is funny), revived my interest in reading and creative writing(I love Robin Hobb and Alyson Greaves), and done a bunch of drawing too! Also literally a few days ago I found out my friend Dove/Arcadia has been working on his own romhack for like a year along with some other friends I know from fgc communities which is a wild coincidence.
One of my big motivators for reconnecting with the FEU community was not being able to fully express what I wanted to and give feedback about hacks that have recently inspired me, notably Hag in White and The Fisher King’s Heart. Being able to do that now has made me really happy :). Also I have terminal Vision Quest brainrot. “Heck” and “Chief” will not leave me until the day I die, probably. Happy to say hello again, you all are very epic 
